Blind Ambition

I see you child, rushing
And pushing and shoving
And climbing their ladler
Accomplishing nothing.
Never once stopping
To check your direction,
You simply push forward
With careless aggression.
Your collar is starched
And your tie perfect, straight,
Following plans that
Your puppeteers make.
And if ever a stray thought
Should enter your mind
You bow your head, chastised
Then fall back in line.
Are you happy with your hedge fund
And your mansion in the hills?
If you were really so happy, friend
You wouldn't need those pills.
Pills to make you sleep,
More pills to help you wake,
Pills to make you smile;
A new pill for every ache.
That is not a life, my son,
No matter what they've told you.
Leave the box they put you in
For you have let them mold you.
Slow your feet,
Widen your gaze,
Step off the path,
Leave the maze.
You might never make your millions
But you could make so much more
If you'd ever leave the rat race,
Look out, and explore.

It Was Just Right There

It's a switch
In a box
In a room
That's been locked
For so long
You forgot it exists.
It's a piece
Of the jigsaw
You lost in your youth
And if you but found it
You'd know the whole truth.
It's a mem'ry,
A dream
Once so real that it seems
Like you must have been
Right here before.
It's a smell you can't place
It's a feast you can't taste
It's the word on the tip of your tongue.
It's the name you forgot
To the face you did not
It's the water you wrang from the sponge.
It's a little bit funny
A little bit sad
Yours relieved when it's over
But not really glad
It's the smile you're fakin'
As your pictures get taken
So no one will realize you're sad.
It's a book
In a safe
In the vault
Of a bank
That burned down
On the wrong side of town.
It's just one more thing
Being brought in the ring
By a car full of rodeo clowns.
It's a day in the life
Of your enemy's wife
And you realize he's human as well.
It's a friendly reminder,
Commonality finder,
An epiphany kept to yourself.
The things which remind us
How actions define us
But the consequence won't involve hell.
It's the greed that consumes you
For things you don't need to
Live happ'ly
But sometimes they help.
So you switch off the box
In the room you keep locked
And you try to forget it exists.

For Lack of a Unified Theory

I just want to go so fast
my future turns into my past
with happiness too good to last;
A second try, another chance
to live again the happenstance.

Writing desks and ravens
and a piping cup of tea.
Memorize my future
like it was my history.
As we fly like bats and twinkling stars
we'll spot the tea tray out past Mars.

Flying freely, without cause
but we'll obey theoretical laws
of the inter-stellar road we're on:
signal, merge right, then straight 'till dawn.
With happy thoughts and meteor dust
we'll never get old and never grow up.

Let seagulls fly us to foreign shores
on spider's thread through space we'll soar
down wormholes in the seams of time;
learn secrets of our life, divine.
And all because of magic bugs
in the software used by ancient gods.

But no matter how fast of far we fly,
we can't outrun the questions "why?"
and every answer we conceive
is no better than 14 times 3.

Connected

I watch you, stoic, standing tall,
still and proud and perched to fall.
Eyes slowly searching into mine
in an instant, connected, sharing time.
Each knowing thoughts deep in the other
bound by space and Earth, the mother.
Silent sisters speak in thought
words unmarred by dialogued plot.
Beautifully simple as She intended
and though you've flown, we're still connected.

Let Me Live Without You

I thought it was over,
I thought it was fine
then you waltz so sweetly
back into my life.
And I fall apart
once again for the night.
I'll cry as I sleep
'til the morning brings light.
Are you proud of yourself
of the pain you have caused?
For you did it again
without even a thought.
So I beg you
with every iota of strength
to walk away from me
and spare me the pain.
Just let it be over
and let me be fine.
Let me forget you
and let me have time.

To a dear friend...

Falling
and failing
arms tired,
flailing.
I see you
slow dying;
eyes empty,
lying.
My hand is extended
if only you'd take it
but you reach for my heart
wanting only to break it.
And if I say nothing
your pain is my burden,
but if I speak open
I would lose you for certain.
So it's lose you to me
or lose you to the world;
my selfish heart aches
for what has to be done.
You're lost
spinning,
spiraling,
deflating your sails.
We all try to help you
but all of us fail.
So tell me dear friend
what it is that you see
when you chance your reflection
do you recognize she?
Or are you a stranger
even unto yourself;
a shade of person
now hollow, a shell.
Please don't let me lose you.
Please don't leave me lonely.
Please don't keep on like this.
Please don't turn from me slowly.
My every hope and my every prayer
is for you to remain whole and happy and here.

If I Could Hate You

I wish I could hurt you
or hate you or fuck you
but I can do nothing
except but to love you.
I wish I could tell you
could see you, could say
what I have been thinking
since that dreaded day.
I wish i could hit you
or curse you or fight you
but all that I want
is to just do right by you.
I wish I could hold you
mine again for one day
and play make believe
make believe you would stay.
But all of my wishes
fall silent in vain
for lover you shall never
be mine again.